Hey There...

I grew up with a lot of fear and a vengeful god who felt distant and ready to punish me for making mistakes.

Finally, in my 20s, someone introduced me to God as a loving Father — told me that it was possible to have a personal, heart-to-heart relationship with Him through Jesus. What a relief! I invited Him into my life and set out on an exciting new adventure.

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Somehow, through the years, a career, a marriage, and three children, I slowly wandered away from the truth. I began to believe in a “universal” god and started down a new age path. Soon, I was dabbling in astrology, paganism, witchcraft, and the occult. I started spending lots of time in seclusion, away from my family. I sank into darkness for years.

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Then, one day, something happened — it was like a veil was lifted from my eyes and I realized all I’d been doing. It was almost like I’d been in a trance and suddenly woke up. I do believe God, in His mercy, allowed me to see the truth to draw me back toward the light. But at that moment, a huge spiritual battle began. I couldn’t accept what I had done. I was so ashamed and felt so condemned…I began fearing the angry god of my childhood and was convinced he would never love me again. 

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I was sent to a mental hospital four different times, and doctors experimented with all kinds of medication to try and draw me out of the darkness. Of course, to them it was all science, but we knew there was a real spiritual battle going on. My husband truly believed I was at the end of my life.

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Then, by the grace of God, I reached a place stable enough to return home to my family. However, it has been a long journey of healing since then. Every day, I'm being freed a little more from the depression and anxiety that enslaved me. I believe God allowed me to come to the end of myself so that I could learn with all my heart that He is my everything. Looking back, even though I became a follower of Jesus years ago, I don’t believe I had truly surrendered my life until now. 

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All I want to do is share His love and help others to live in the light. And one way I do that is through my writing, reminding readers every day that YOU ARE BELOVED. If we don’t build our foundation on the unconditional love of Christ, it will not stand. We must learn to let that love in and let it drown out the lies of the enemy, our own self-hate, and anything else that threatens to tear us down. We need to know that we’re not alone. I hope you find a haven here.